I can't wait to move out of this rented place and move to my new house. This place have been giving me a really negative feeling and have been affecting my mood and health. This is bad.

Work started on Tues. Though I barely worked for a couple of days I know my life will become tougher and more stressful due to the irregular working hours, OT, and things I have to learn and memorize. I don't know why I get myself into this in the first place. Oh well, so today I tried on the uniform to confirm the size and I realized the blazer(no collar) doesn't cover my neck tattoo. So I told my trainer about it and they're considering whether to continue or void my contract which I already signed. Guess I'll only know later. Part of me would really want them to terminate me.

God will decide the right path for me. I know this is a part of stepping stone in life. Every night I pray to him, telling him I want to be a stronger person. I've faith.

I thank god for giving my hoefoe in my life(though most of the time she's being really annoying). she've been my pillar of strength. She's the sweetest and never fail to take care of me even though how freaking tired she is and even came to pick me from work after her exams. This is quite bad because I rely on her a lot. I hope she do well for her exams, poor girl have been feeling really stress as well.

Till then, wish us luck! Definitely will be back with a happier post. Hopefully some good new perhaps?